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Sweet Sensation
Friday, August 13, 2010Friday, August 13, 2010 ☺;
I doesn't know how to start or begin
on my posting
because I have promise someone that
cannot post so many things in the public blog
but how can I do if i cannot have a self-control and resistance to share out?
Overall
I have come back to church
yup, its finally, and should happy for me
but its too early to congrats me in such a word
as now my parents disallow me to eat back grass (回頭草)
for more details, it private and confidential
and also said to me why you leaves Heart of God Church
I don't know what to do and say!!!
now is another decision to make
to respect my parents' decision to leave the church
or ignore it to continue attending
Last Sunday was the 1st time as being apart a year
to step into church
the feeling was nervous as I will meet them people again
but after then it was fine
and somehow I can feel the strangeness
after service, I was rotting in the cafe somewhere
looking in my blackberry
although there people say hi and welcome me
but those people whom used to be close with are becoming the stranger in me
only my so called God brother (Shall not say his name out)
willing to ease my boredom in here
but totally glad that the pastors (Some of them)
given a smile to me say hi Sharon
but then one is none
I know
all I come church is to seek God
but the emptiness in my heart still exist
I don't know why?
D.E.C.I.S.I.O.N
is the word I hate the most
because when the word comes into
always ME to be middle person
likewise, in the past year
between boyfriend and church
i choose boyfriend
but now it different
between my parents and church
which one should i choose?
can someone tell me??
freaking out tired
but all i know now the best relationship that I have now
is my family's love
recently loving to have a chat with my mother
but not friends anymore
only some that worth for me to hang out with
mostly is my secondary school friends
even though we never often meet
but when we meet
we have endlessly talking
I have problem and sometime I post status in my face book
but who encourage me
my secondary school friend
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:Should I leave again?
But I not saying I don't love God anymore
Yes I do love
but now I cannot feel the friendship love anymore
♥Friday, August 13, 2010,
